More To Come To Terms With: 13th December 2013
Then just as we were beginning to come to terms with losing Frankie a tiny bit, we had yet more news from some past test results and Frankie’s partial post-mortem which knocked us for six 🙁 I wrote on this blog about the amniocentesis test I had on October 28th. I...
Normal? What’s Normal: 6th to 12th December 2013
While everyone seemed to be getting on with their lives, preparing for Christmas, going to work and looking forward to Christmas parties, I felt completely bereft and on the sidelines of it all. I didn’t want to put the Christmas decorations up. Christmas was the...
Frankie’s Funeral – 5th December 2013
The day that I was dreading, the day I didn’t want to have to go through, was finally here. It was the day of Frankie’s funeral. My husband and I had been on autopilot over the last few days organising everything, deciding on the order of service, choosing the music...
Limbo Land: 1st to 4th December 2013
During the few days leading up to Frankie’s funeral I can only describe them as being in “limbo land”. I can’t even put into words how I felt, except that I was there but not there, living but not living, present but not present, sleeping but not sleeping. I felt...
Going Home Without Frankie – 30th November 2013
The hardest thing I have ever, ever had to do in my life was walk out of the Worcestershire Royal Hospital without my son, and with a memory box. My husband and I woke up at 7am and the midwife on duty bought us some toast and coffee. I had a final blood pressure,...
Welcome To The World Frankie Part 2 – 29th November 2013
David said he would come back at 3.30pm to bless and baptise Frankie, and then left us so we could spend some time together. All I wanted to do was hold Frankie, and eventually the epidural had worn off enough that I was allowed to walk and go back to the Fay Turner...
Welcome To The World Frankie Part 1 – 29th November 2013
I opened my eyes at 3.00am just as Samantha was giving me another check. At this point I’d had a bit of show and my waters broke, so she said it wouldn’t be very long until I was ready to give birth to Frankie. My husband rang my parents and they said they were on...
Contractions Contractions – 28th November 2013
So I didn’t manage much sleep that night, because I was woken up every four hours and given more tablets to try and get me into labour. Nothing at all happened except for the few twinges that I’d felt the day before, but at 6.30am I finally started to have...
Why Are We Waiting – 27th November 2013
Once in the delivery suite we were shown into a room and told that the private suite was just being prepared for us and that we could go in it as soon as it was ready. For the first two hours we were there nothing much happened, we had a coffee and I got comfortable...
Springing Into Action: 26th to 27th November 2013
At this point, and this is going to sound really mad, but while my husband and I still had a tiny bit of wherewithal between us around the tears we shed we decided we would try to prepare as much as possible for what was to come. We started to think about Frankie’s...
